2008年8月15日星期五

When I am alone

When I am alone, I have to pretend..
No matter how sad am I , I am going to smile,
as if I am telling the whole world I could not be defeated!

When I am alone, I have to be independent.
No matter how hard a issue I have got is,
or how strong my desire to flee is,
finally I stand still.

When I am alone, I just keep walking.
especially whenever the tears are about to rush out my eyes..
I won't stop until I am too tired to walk any longer.
Then I fall on my bed,maybe,I did cry in my dreams,
But fortunately no one see it.

Are you tired Alan?Why you have to flaunt the superiority?
Why you have to hide all your human frailty?
Cuz I am alone...

Yes, when I am alone,I do wish there is someone by my side.
We can lie on the grassland and count the stars in summer,
We can walk together on the bank of the most beautiful riverof the city in Spring.
We can sit against a tree quietly and watch every leaf falling slowly on the ground tree in the autumn.
And winter is the greatest time of the whole year!We make a wish under a most gorgeous Christmas tree,and hailing out and give a warm hug when the first stroke sound of new year been heard.

Yes,maybe I need to work hard in pursuit of my desired happiness from now on!

2008年8月7日星期四

Who are U talking about?

what a ridiculous feeling it is!
This afternoon,my mother and my sister sat together and appreciating my photos which I took in HK, not long after they began, they started talking about me!
First, they talked about what am I like when I was a little boy..Then my changes at present..Not only my appearance but also my characters and personality.
But I donnot think the person they were discussing about is me!Actually, from my point of view,the person they described is totally a stranger to us!Hehe,interesting but strange phenominon,isn't it?
Well,the reason I think they were not talking about me is that the so-called characters of mine were all opposite or wrong when compared with my real ones! And I donot know why or how they got these impressions.But one thing I am sure:I won't change myself in order to carter them!If I did so,I would lost myself and lost my happiness!
Yes,despite this,there is a much more important fact:They do not understand me!Not only them,including some other relatives and friends also got some wrong impressions about me.Maybe I need communicate more with them,and be more honest and frank!

2008年8月5日星期二

Friends

Today I wanna write something about my friends.
Well,first of all, maybe I should classify my friends:Some are those who I met at school or since I were a little child.Others, we has just became friends recently, only few weeks ago,and most of them we get to know each other through chat on line, we had never meet,of course.
But something strange happened then:I find my new friends seems more understand me.My old friends,on the opposite,we get fewer and fewer topics as time moves on..
So,now when I feel terribly upset,I prefer telling my ner friends,and they do help a lot!I've tried telling my old friends as well,still,they comfort me and told me all will be fine soon.Yes,I'm so glad that they could comfort me,but sometimes, I felt their expressions were somewhat apathetic!
My old friends always tell me that people online cannot be trusted.But,now,I enjoy even indulge in the easy and comfortable feelings brought by my new friends.
Yes,maybe the reason is because I am growing,I am changing,so do my old friends.So,they only understand the past me,but did not realise or notice my changes.
Anyhow,nomater old friends or new friends,they are all my friends.My life cannot without any of them!

2008年8月4日星期一

Why I start this blog?

This is my..er..the 6th blog?..maybe
Actually,not because I always get tired about old things,and I start another,again and again..
I know,something is hard to express or write in Chinese
So,I believe a blog of mine written in English is needed!--This is what this blog used for
OK..this is my first post of this blog!But not the last of course,HaHa..